Tuesday, January 12, 2010
After been sobbing over my 'O' level results, I need to learn to look at it in God's perspective. He has a greater plan for me, a place for me to go.
When I first heard my results, I was terribly disappointed. I told God I need to get less than 20 points but eventually I got 23 points which really saddens me tremendously because most of the courses that I like is around 18 points.
I was emotionless. I had nothing to say and really speechless. All in my mind was "Why..." I felt that I failed my expectations, I felt so unjustified. I tried my very best and I got 23 points.
I compared my results to others and thought to myself, "Why can't I be like them?" Others who got the points like 14 to 17 were still not satisfied and the process of the hurt was like adding "Salt to my Wound."
I spoke to Isaac Teh on January 12 of 2010 and what he spoke to me really impacted me tremendously. He told me that "Do not do things just to get accepted, but do things because you are already accepted." That really spoke to me a lot because God accepts each and everyone of us, failures and sinners.
He said that Chrisitianity is a relationship that no one religion can substitudes. He accepts all and forgave all before who come to Him. Isn't that great!? Many of us think by doing lots of good deeds and through our works, we can cover up our sins but that is wrong. Nothing can cover our sins except the blood of Jesus Christ.
He also told me what the world defined as 'Good.' To be good in life is to be successful, to be rich, to have all the things you want in life, to have a good family and good children and etc. But all these things will fade away. In blibical terms, 'Good' is only defined as purity, Holy, righteous, clean, etc. No one is good at all, not one except God.
But seek first His kingdom and righteousness, and all these will be given to you as well.
Matthew 6:33
He taught me that what does it really mean seek first His kingdom. Does it mean to serve God more? Do things more for God?
Seek first His kingdom actually means to spend time reading God's word and dwelling in His presence. It is not by how much we serve or how we serve or what we serve. It is how much we are spending time with God. God will provide for you to survive on Earth. He will not forsake you or leave you.
I also learnt how to serve in the right attitude, in out of love and not out to gain recognitions from people. Sometimes when we serve, we get carried away and would want to show off to others. The Holy Spirit will convict us how to serve in the right attitude.
Do not serve just to gain recognition from others, but serve out of love and also know you are already accepted.
Indeed I have to thank God for sending a spiritual mentor in guiding me in my Christian walk with God and also that I can grow more in God. Thank you Isaac Teh for spending time with me, in helping me to grow spiritually and also that really really thank you so much for everything. You've been a great spiritual mentor to me that I will never forget. God bless you in everything you do!
Labels: Thanksgiving to God despite difficult times...
--God Is Good--
1/12/2010 10:09:00 PM
